.:iN THE NiGHT:.
It's in the late night ours when the world finally sleeps
that the thoughts in the mind finally have a chance to creep
no longer being disturbed by the busyness of life to change them
feeling less restraint to be stopped and questioned by Him
It's these thoughts that I rebuke and dismiss aloud
But its in my silence and vulnerability that they've found
A temporary lay to keep my mind going
And killing me to say that all its been showing
Is my past, my latest present, and my once future dreams
I say time and time again no longer do they mean
Anything their null and void and set out to be changed
but my small mental words don't seem to phase
The hearts beat and its search for me
But an unchained heart can't return if its not willingly
Let go of and left to find its own way home
These thoughts of mine will not leave me alone
The decisions have been made, the Spirit has spoken alast
Though strong these thoughts and feelings are, I refuse to let them surpass
My path, my new goals, my walk with God
I will not let the ways of man ever again come and rob
Me of my blessings that i sometimes can't see
But in the end He let's me know there's more out there for me
Retracing the same path He won't allow
False hopes he won't let me have......
Yet He's always faithful in revealing the better
And i can't complain for this new pleasure
that He's giving me that I'm allowed to feel
And its His love filling that void with something so real
My heart will learn and one day follow
But that days not today; nor will it be tomorrow
I feel this adrenaline and excitement throughout the day
But its at the end when I've run out of things to say
That my praise becomes low and i have to refuel
And its in the downtime that these thoughts try and fool
My mind with my heart because they are no longer in agreement....
but i REFUSE to give up this fight and defer my achievement
i've come this far by faith and i'm taking it a day at a time.
He's got me in a strong embrace and i will continue to claim Him as mine.
My savior, my Father, my Everything.
My comfort, my care, my security.
If i say nothing else in a day, my prayer is to show gladly
That I'm no longer afraid to cry out, "I NEED YOU DADDY"
